Journey to the Real Me

I've Moved

2009-05-20T06:47:00.002-04:00

Hi all. For the next 52 weeks or so... I've moved to another blog. I'd love it if you would join me there!!!

52weeks... to the ME I was meant to BE!

A Good Day

2009-03-09T23:15:00.003-04:00

Sprinting. Dropping weight. Good metabolism. Fun. Accomplishment. Step Record: 14,699. That sums it up for today. Here are some of my more recent adventures... details to follow soon...

A quick jog around the track at Kent State (1 lap)

The weather broke - temporarily- So I got to go run outside.

A walk around the block with Dad ... saw my cousin while we were out and stopped to chat.

Tonight at Kent State indoor track. That last spike is a FULL SPRINT. It felt great!! No more jogging for me. The feel of running is soooo much better!

A little over a week to go

2009-03-05T23:24:00.002-05:00

I have a renewed passion to achieve my goal, but realistically I don't think it will happen. Although I do not feel bad about it. I've done quite well, a few little slip ups here and there but nothing major. I managed to to get to a gym at least 3 times every week. But now.. my renewed energy... I've been to the gym 6 days in a row. And I'm trying to push myself harder while I'm there -- get the most bang for my buck, so to speak. There is just so much going on. I need a good 30 minutes just to keep my fitness stuff updated... like you will notice my exercise log and weight logs are a bit behind.. I'm working on it I promise.

It's late now.. and I must sleep!! The gym calls at 5:30!!

Roller Coaster

2009-02-26T12:06:00.002-05:00

These past few weeks have been overwhelming. I have too much to do so it makes me do NOTHING. grrr.

I finally went for another run outside, it was in the 40s today. Here's my run:

More updates on life coming soon... I promise.

Exciting Puzzle Pieces

2009-02-16T21:34:00.002-05:00

Have you been to that point when everything just MAKES SENSE. You have a sense of where you're supposed to be and what you're supposed to be doing. The pieces to lead me to that point have been appearing one by one over the last month and I'm really REALLY excited about it. I am more motivated than ever to make them all true.

I know where I want to live - Summit County, near Akron. I loved it when I lived there before and I was the most "adult-like" and grown up when I was there. I also found a running store that has 5k training!! (in that area)

So my goal is to get a job up there and move there this summer.

(and if you've been keeping up with my posts - I'm starting to lose weight again, and I'm pursuing additional licensure so that I WILL BE able to teach upper level math!!)

Well I need to go to bed.

Happy Presidents' Day!

Happy Day

2009-02-15T21:22:00.004-05:00

Today was a great day. The scale was friendly - 210.0 !!! and I had a great workout, a whole 60 minutes on the elliptical. I had a shower to go to and they served fruit and grilled chicken! I did have some cake but it is all accounted for and permissible :)

I have realized I really MUST eat more. I will lose weight better by eating my WHOLE 1800 calories and if that means I need to move my butt even more to get the deficit I want, than that's what it has to be.

Not eating enough is NOT a shortcut. You'd think I'd have learned this by now!!! Ok I'm going to curl up in my nice warm bed and watch a movie... then sleep!! :)

Goodnight!

Today also turned out to be a 41 point day (43 is my highest) and I logged 12,164 steps (my best is 13,732) That's by far my best step count for a WEEKEND. YAY!

Tried something New

2009-02-14T21:52:00.002-05:00

Today I did an experiment that is very unlike me. I experimented with a recipe and I must admit, it's not bad. There are few tweaks I will make, and I will definitely try again.

Low Fat Potato Soup (my interpretation)
Makes 4 1 cup servings - supposedly
1/2 bag of Ore Ida Shredded Hashbrowns
2 cans of fat free/low salt College Inn Chicken Broth
1 packet of McCormick's Country Gravy (this I will try others next time - a little too spicy for me)

Brown the hashbrowns... add them to chicken broth, cook until potatoes are "squishy" then add the gravy mix. I let it simmer for a bit and then let it set - so the gravy would get thicker.

Surprisingly it really did taste like Potato Soup. :) and here are the nutritional stats for 1 cup:

Calories: 155
Fat: 4g
Saturated Fat: 0
Cholesterol: 0
Sodium: 1010mg (mostly from the gravy mix)
Carbs: 26g
Fiber: 2g
Protein: 5g

Changing the prize

2009-02-13T21:46:00.002-05:00

Ok the last two days have been HORRIBLE. I'm blaming stress and it ends tonight. I'm going to put some relaxing lotion on, crawl into my nice warm bed and read my book until the real world just fades away (at least until tomorrow)

I decided that I would much rather have the new Madagascar movie (with additional Penguin Movie) instead of the Wii Game. So I switched it. I can do that right? After all it is MY point/reward system right?

Ok I'm off to la-la world.

FRUSTRATING DAY- Expensive Lesson

2009-02-11T21:35:00.002-05:00

I won't go into the details of the day, because I'd rather forget them. The day started off rocky since we lost electricity and my alarms didn't go off! But anyway... on my way home tonight, I stopped for a DQ SMALL blizzard, my throat was sore and I thought it would do nicely for it. I estimated in my head that a small would probably be between 300 and 400 calories, and I had space allotted in my "calorie count". Of course, I also stopped for an Arby's Roastbeef -- I told you it was a bad day. I know the Arby's is 400 and I really did still have room for the DQ (at my estimation).
So I came home and looked up the Blizzard details... then rechecked them, made sure I picked small and looked again... let's just say there will be NO MORE blizzards in my future!!! I'm glad I enjoyed this one.
710 calories, 27 grams of Fat!!!!

Ok That being said, I'm going to bed so I get up EXTRA early and go burn some EXTRA calories. I declared today my rest day -- since between my alarm issues and class, I had no chance to get to the gym.

Back in the Saddle

2009-02-10T19:58:00.002-05:00

So, it's a new week, I took a few days off (Thur-Sun) and came back refreshed and energized. I've been to the gym twice this week - both times before the crack of dawn. I like this new schedule I've set for myself. I try to go to bed between 9 and 10 and get up somewhere between 5 and 5:30. My points are going well. I should reach my next goal tomorrow. Of course this prize doesn't interest me nearly as much as I thought it would.

Tonight I went to dinner with my parents, and ate too much. I wanted something new- different... but I think it was a bad choice, but i"ll make up for it at the gym tomorrow.

Well Biggest Loser is on and I have Valentine's to write.

I need routine

2009-02-03T21:46:00.004-05:00

Maybe I'm a little OCD, (actually I've always thought I had a few OCD tendancies) but MAN do I miss my regular routine. I'm content eating the same thing, at the same time, day after day. I like predictability. (but at the same time I also like spontanaity - I'm weird)

I'm here in Columbus at a conference. I accidentally booked the wrong hotel, so I have no fridge or microwave, which changes my food plan.

Yesterday I did ok food wise but exercise was tough. I tried 3 machines before settling on the recumbant bike. My stomach was... kinda crampy and legs were just dragging, overall I was only able to go about 20 minutes. (By the end of the day though, I did come in with over an hour of at least moderate activity) I also realized I really really did not like the water at the hotel. It's great for brushing my teeth, but offered no comfort while working out.

Because of my being out of townness... and my stomach acting up (I'm thinking it was the effects of my pizza Sunday night) I decided to allow myself an extra day before my weigh in. So my official "Tuesday" weigh in will be "Wednesday" this week.

Last night I stayed up late reading my book and so my morning workout didn't happen - my stomach was still bothering me last night, so I decided to sleep in (till 7am) and do my workout this evening. On my way back to the hotel tonight, I stopped at Kroger and bought some bottled water - that in itself gave me some extra motivation to workout. Plus I wore my Great Big Sea gear all day to help remind me of what's at stake (besides my life, health, etc).

Anyway, so I decided to try the treadmill, and used a makeshift playlist (my GBS one) I felt much better than recent treadmill workouts. I'm guessing that it had to do with being more relaxed (by myself) and maybe the speeds are different on these treadmills. However I did notice that I kept getting statically shocked! I was watching Biggest Loser as I was running and when I ended my workout, I forgot to end my Nike+ workout, so my graphic will probably look weird. I won't be able to upload it until I get home, I use my other computer for that.

Well, I have some homework to attend to, and then to sleep. I can't wait to get to the Gym Thursday morning and hop on the elliptical. I miss it. :)

Getting it right...

2009-02-01T21:18:00.000-05:00

Today I had a good workout... but was on a different elliptical and my quad was hurting pretty bad. I think because it was a different "ramp" angle. I didn't push quite as hard as usual. And of course tonight was my splurge night - which means I will be kicking my own butt tomorrow morning.

I'm in Columbus, at a conference and trying to eat as well as I can, and workout as much as possible (according to my usual schedule). I've even brought my scale with me!! I need to see those numbers.

Since I will be getting up extra early, I'm going to go read my book and call it a night. The game will keep me company - the commercials leave much to be desired. Although I did like the "Go Fetch" budweiser one, and the one with the Potato Heads.

Have a good week!

Decisions and minor frustrations

2009-01-31T14:04:00.002-05:00

I know I must sound manic.. ecstatic one day and frustrated the next and I'm sure some of it is hormones but well.. such is life.

Today's frustration and confusion came from my workout. I've been noticing that I burn WAY more calories in 30 minutes on the elliptical than 30 minutes on the treadmill.

For example, yesterday in 30 minutes on the elliptical I burned 400 calories, and I stayed "at a higher level of aerobic activity" for an additional hour, burning a total of 580 calories.

Treadmill (on Monday) for 30 minutes burned 294 calories and the lasting effect after an hour netted only a total of 425 calories.

In addition to the NUMBERS, I feel a lot better after an elliptical workout. I have that extra hitch in my step and feel like bouncing off the walls. After a treadmill workout, I'm exhausted - ready for a nap! So.

I guess I've made my decision, I'm just looking for support on it. At least for now, until I shed some more weight, I'm going to focus on Elliptical workouts. As the weather breaks, and races get closer (and I'm MUCH lighter) I will resume my 5k training. But for now, my main goal is to lose weight and so that's what I'll do.

The down side to this is that I won't have any neat little nike+ graphics for the elliptical (it doesn't work on ellipticals) I've also found myself paying less attention to elliptical mileage and just pushing as hard as I can and I listen to Great Big Sea --- my inspiration :)

So there it is, now I'm going to go get some yummy BBQ chicken and brown rice.

I leave for Columbus tomorrow...

My last (for awhile) run data:

New things... bring Excitement

2009-01-30T22:58:00.002-05:00

I have a new plan I'm trying. Well I did it today and I really liked it. I'm not a morning person- ask anyone who knows me, I'm a late night owl and I prefer to sleep in. BUT, I've decided that I'm going to start working out BEFORE work. That means getting up at 5, being at the gym by 5:30, so I can return home shortly after 6 to get ready for work. I did it today.... I LOVED IT. I felt great all day long!

I will try it again next week. (I"ll be at a conference so everything will be kinda messed up for awhile)

The second excitement is I changed my plan for life.. or at least the next few credit hours. I decided instead of pursuing technology- I want to add high school math to my license. In short this means I WILL HAVE MATH HOMEWORK this semester.. and I'm totally PSYCHED about it :) I'm a nut, ok I admit it. I love math, I enjoy doing math, and I'm actually GIDDY that I will get to do math homework. I believe this is further proof that I belong in a MATH classroom even more than a computer lab. I'll explain more about this later.. but right now-I have a nice warm bed to crawl into and a couple of math books to start reading.. HEE HEE =)

Feeling better

2009-01-27T21:38:00.003-05:00

Well, my weigh in this morning was just as dismal as last night's. However, I had a good talk with the lady from BodyBugg and I had a great workout (only 30 mins) at the gym and I think I've got it figured out.

It's that time of the month - AND I think I was pushing myself too hard. I was tired all last week and my workouts never exhausted me like that. I'm all about being exhausted as I'm working out... but not in the aftermath- that's not right.

So my goal this week is to eat a little more (within my budget), workout HARD for 30 minutes a day, and get 8 hours of sleep each night. I'm hoping the snow storm will help me with getting lots of sleep tonight. In fact, as soon as I write this, I'm going to watch the end of Biggest Loser, then crawl into bed and read my book -- and be ASLEEP by 11 if not sooner!!

Thanks for listening.. I'm off =)

Blah.. what a letdown

2009-01-26T20:45:00.003-05:00

Today was rough. I woke up late, and it went downhill from there. I was in a fog all day long. Unfortunately the fog turned into a migraine. I fended that off with my best friend - Aleve- and managed to complete my Walmart shopping trip. I found a cute pair of pajamas to use as a goal outfit, and some luggage for my little excursion next week. (To Columbus for a technology conference).
My headache being gone, I came home, got psyched up for the gym, and went to get weighed in. I don't know... I hate that scale. I've been working my butt off, showing calorie deficits over 1000 almost every day, and yet, according to their scale I've only lost 1 pound. ONE. That's it. ONE!

So off I headed to the treadmill for my run. I don't know if it was the aftermath of the migraine (I forgot they can be draining) or the disappointment of the weigh in, but my workout felt terrible. My calves were cramping, my feet were aching, and my time ended up... well pardon my "french" sucking! I know I pushed myself hard during the run portions, but then I seem to go even slower in the walk portions. I think I'm dehydrated, or at least dried out. Partially from the cold weather and hot showers. I've been getting better about putting moisturizer on, and I'm trying to drink more water. I'm just frustrated.

I keep reminding myself that TOMORROW is the weigh in that counts. Tomorrow is the one that I use to keep track of my success.

In other news. I started a new experiment. I know other people have done it before, but I thought I would try the "picture a day" thing. So I'm going to take a picture of myself everyday for a year. You are welcome to check out my experiment. Of course today's picture will be lovely since I forgot to take it BEFORE I worked out! oh well.

Here's to KNOWING tomorrow will be better than today!

Blast from the Past

2009-01-24T23:14:00.005-05:00

So today I got an IM from an old friend. The premise was business but the result was great. It was so nice chatting and catching up and things are really go well for both of us! It's strange how just that tiny reconnection with a friend can make you smile... minutes... after the conversation is over - and of course, no one can even see that I'm smiling. In fact one of my favorite quotes is "If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it." By Andy Rooney I think it's very true. If no one is around you are smiling for yourself, because it's what you REALLY feel. (this conversation also proved to be a much better alternative than the ice cream sundae I was going to have!)

OK enough of that .. back to business...
It looks like I get to start reading a new book tomorrow - I think I"ll end VERY close tonight, but not quite enough. I did however go out and buy the book today.. so it will be ready and waiting for me.
I learned an important lesson today - or rather figured out a potentially disasterous problem. The last few days, when I've been kicking my own butt at the gym, I 've come home and had a terrible upset stomach. I've eaten like I should but both Wed and Thur I headed to bed early in an attempt to make it go away. Today when I got home from the gym, it happened again, after successfully devouring a pita with turkey and cheese and strawberries (The strawberries weren't in the pita!) . So I did some research and found that one cause of an upset stomach after a workout is dehydration. UH OH. So today, as I was feeling rotten, I re-filled my water bottle and continued sipping on it... and tada! it went away. I now know (especially on days when I really push myself) I need to keep drinking water, long after my workout is over.

Today on the treadmill (and the 3 mins or so on the bike) the bottoms of my feet were killing me. Any ideas why? I also got on the new Precor elliptical/stepper machine. I didn't like it. It's cool, it adjusts to your strides so you can be doing steps, a short stride, or long stride like skiing. But I had a hard time keeping it where I wanted it. After running on the treadmill, I wanted to just work my quads - my calves were beat up enough. I think I'll stick to the regular ellipticals from now on.

Yesterday was my rest day - and I decided I really deserved it. So I curled up on the couch and watched "Catch Me if You Can"

I guess that's all for now. This week's motivational quote has been "Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over is you just sit there." I have to remind myself to get up an move sometimes!

Book Store.. here I come

2009-01-22T21:48:00.003-05:00

I guess I'll be heading to the bookstore after school tomorrow so I can start reading the prize I'm sure to earn in the next two days =)

Things have been going well. Today I took a step and sculpting class at the gym - it truly kicked my butt and felt great.

I'm so tired though, all this activity is making me crave sleep all the more!

Another Sole Sisters connection - today I decided that I needed a new sports bra so I figured I would look and see what kind the one was that I liked. It was Moving Comfort. There was actually a story in Sole Sisters about the founders of the company. It makes me very glad that I wear their stuff and I will definitely buy more from them.

Well I'm bushed.

54 Days until Great Big Sea!!!

13,732

2009-01-21T22:28:00.003-05:00

That's the number of steps I did today! I blame it all on my rekindled love of the elliptical and an unending basketball game. Really, Virginia Tech needs to work on their Free Throws! :)

Tonight's post is going to be short because it's already 10:30 and I need to get up extra early.

I kicked some butt today.
I did my regular treadmill run - 30 mins
Then I got on the elliptical for about 45 minutes.

I met my calorie burn goal, my step goal, and my exercise time goal. Pretty good day I'd say. But now I'm understandingly tired.

Talk to you all tomorrow!

My Girl, I Second That Emotion, The Way You Do The Things You Do

2009-01-20T22:54:00.003-05:00

All great songs! Those are the kind of Temptations I like. Not the kind I had to face today. A fellow teacher of mine had an "Inauguation Party" for her students complete with DELICIOUS smelling pizza. She offered me some... and it did smell so good... but I have a goal. I have a destination to get to and random pizza does not fit.

Feeling proud of myself for skipping the pizza, I went on with my day. We had a meeting after school when this SAME (unnamed) teacher plopped a box of Oreos and Fudge Striped Cookies on the table next to me. I could just smell the chocolate begging me... but.. I only looked once - and it wasn't even close to wanting one - it was just to see exactly what they were. YAY for me!

Today I also tried Water Aerobics, the jury is still out on whether or not I like it. I mean it was different, but I don't know if it's "enough" of a workout for the amount of time I put in. I'll see how I feel in the morning. Although I did ride the recumbent bike for a half hour after because I didn't feel like I had worked out at all.

So much to tell.... Last night I finished Sole Sisters (recommended to me by Irene). Some stories were more inspirational than others, several made me at least tear up if not completely break down. One story inspired me so much, I'm going to run in the race that it presented. Chapter 4 is about the Allentown Women's Classic 5K. It's a very girly race held in October. It sounds like a blast. I informed my parents that we are taking a mini vacation that week, to the Lehigh Valley so I can run in that race. This will be the first race that my parents will be at (unless they decide to come to some this summer) But my goal is to truly RUN this race. To be a fit, runner.

I mentioned above that I have a new drive- a new passion. Last night as I was blogging about music, I realized how much I miss "Great Big Sea" I really want to see them in concert again. I've known about a concert about 4 hours from where I live and I've been debating about it. I don't have anyone to go with. But after listening to them last night, I REALLY want to go. It feels right. So I bought my ticket - with the condition that I WILL BE UNDER 200 POUNDS by the time of the concert. (March 17). So there it is - I get to go see my Band if I stick to my routine!

That's all I have for tonight. I need to get some sleep. Goodnight.

Moving Along

2009-01-19T22:03:00.003-05:00

So I went to the gym tonight. Still not really "feeling it" but went out of habit - and the fact that I had to weigh in for Biggest Loser. Success! According to the scales at the gym I lost 2.8 pounds this week! Now I'm thinking.... "imagine what I could do if I actually got my butt there more and worked out more often!!"
I ran on the treadmill again-

I was much happier with this run. I finally broke the 3k mark on the treadmill. Yay. I 've started listening to music more. I find I get A LOT more done listening to music - rather than watching tv and there are songs that make me HAPPY. I find myself smiling - and even singing along. Plus even as sit here typing this I'm listening to "Charlie Horse" and I know I'm gonna be dancing as I sit here. Music is good! Man do I want to see them again!

Anyway, I think I'm going to go to bed early tonight... so with that.. goodnight.

P.S. Irene gave me a "fabulous Blogger award". Thanks!!

Jersey Boys... and stairs

2009-01-18T23:10:00.003-05:00

The past few days I have done a whole lot of computer work- but not much actual physical work - like working out! However- I did manage to have a calorie deficit each day.(as measured by my Body Bugg) :)

Today we went to see Jersey Boys in Pittsburgh -- the city was alive with the game going on, and at intermission everyone was checking phones, tvs, etc to get the latest updates. I'm glad the Steelers won. I don't care for Baltimore very much. Lol. But anyway the point of my story... besides seeing an AWESOME show, I managed to get a bit of a workout in. We parked on the 9th floor of the parking garage and I decided that I was going to take the stairs when we left. Ok - I was a bit overzealous. 9 stories in a parking garage is HUGE. and of course being the crazy self that I am, I didn't just meander up the stairs. Oh no, I RAN up the stairs- well the first 5 flights, then I huffed and puffed the rest of the way. I made it up in less than 3 minutes and man was I sucking air! Whew! But I'm proud of myself for taking advantage of the opportunity.

We also ate at Buca di Beppo. I probably ate more spaghetti than I should have, but I did well limiting what I ate.

Ways to Earn Points

2009-01-18T11:24:00.001-05:00

I have devised a new system to earn points. I have included some other (not physical fitness or food related) items. I consider them to be for my "mental fitness." It's a way of MAKING me, make time for myself.

Here we go.Most of these are daily, but some can only be earned at certain times during the week.

Wear Body Bugg - 2 point
Track all food - 2 points
Fruit- 1 each
Vegetables- 1 each
Fruit & Veggie Bonus point if each is 2 or more, and veggie is greater than fruit.
Take Vitamin- 1 point
Daily Reading* - 1 point
Meet Protein Goal (20%) - 2 points
Meet Protein Goal within 2% - 1 point
Meet Carb Goal (65%) - 2 points
Meet Carb Goal within 2% - 1 point
Meet Fat Goal (15%) - 2 points
Meet Fat Goal within 2% - 1 point
Meet/Exceed Fiber Goal (21g) - 2 points
Meet Saturated Fat Goal (<20g) - 2 points
Meet Water Goal (64oz) - 3 points
Meet Water Goal ( 1/2 water, 1/2 other liquid) - 2 points
Meet Water Goal (1/2 water) - 1 point
Calorie Deficit (1000+cal) - 3 points
Calorie Deficit (500-999cal) - 2 points
Calorie Deficit (1-499 cal) - 1 point
30 Mins of Cardio - 2 points
30 Mins of Weights - 2 points
30 Mins of Yoga - 2 points
30 Mins of Running (outside) - 5 points
30 Mins of "activity" on body bugg (if not in another category)- 2 points
Wii Sports/Wii Fit- 1 point for every 15 minutes
Steps Taken Daily 10,000 - 4 points
Steps Taken Daily 5000-9999 - 2 points
Steps Taken: More than the day before- 1 point
Write a blog - 3 points (can only earn once per day)
Sleep (the night before) 7+hours - 3 points
Sleep (the night before) 5-7- 1 point
Piano Practice - 1 point for every 15 minutes
Positive Weigh in (Tuesdays only) -2+lbs -5 points
Positive Weigh in (Tuesdays only) 1-2lbs - 3 points
Positive Weigh in (Tuesdays only) .1-.9lbs - 1 point

So there you have it. :) Since I have made more points available I'm thinking of shifting some of my "Prize levels."
*Daily Reading- I have several books that I've been reading. If I sit down and read at least one of them - a chapter or more- it counts.

2009-01-15T23:07:00.001-05:00

Today's Run... more details in the morning.

And we're off!

2009-01-13T08:19:00.003-05:00

Lots of things new...
Yesterday started the Biggest Loser competition at the gym. I'm on the team "Life is Good". Well the way I view it... it's getting better all the time.
My starting weight there was 220. YUCK! But my goal is to be at 205 by March 8.

To help me along the way this time, I bought a new toy. Hee hee. Ever watch the Biggest Loser on Tv? Know that armband they all wear? Well I got one of those. Yep! So far today I know that I've burned 616 calories (I got a late start figuring out how it worked) The program's pretty cool too. It's called a bodybugg. They were also running a special, so I go the digital display for free. The DD (Digital Display) can be worn as a watch or a clip. I'm up to 621, burned 5 calories typing this paragraph!

Last night at the gym they also had a guy there who did our body composition - talk about being a little emabarrassed. However- I was pleased that his results are right about the same that my bodyfat scale reports. I feel more confident relying on my scale now- rather being pinched everywhere!!

Also last night at the gym I noticed something unusual - and I don't like it. I did my "week 1" run that I usually do outside on the treadmill and I didn't go nearly as far, nor did I burn as many calories. Is it normal to go slower on a treadmill than on the road? Should I be concerned about this?

Well that's all I have for now. I am in the middle of a gigantic project (and have to go to the eye doctor - yearly checkup)

Later!

Goal ACHIEVED

2009-01-10T22:11:00.001-05:00

WOOHOO. I finally got to 150 pts!! Yippee. I'm going to take the rest of the evening off, play my new DS game, and go to bed early.

Tomorrow will be spent in front of the computer working on my new webpage. Check it out if you have a minute - just remember it's under MAJOR construction. :)

So many new things.

2009-01-06T19:33:00.005-05:00

I don't seem to ever have enough time to tell all the things I need to.

Today when I got to the gym, the place was PACKED. So I ventured into the "Ladies Only" section in hopes of finding an open treadmill. No such luck. However I did find an open recumbent bike and sat down to ride for 3o mins. It's better than nothing right?

I learned an important lesson - I will never workout in that room again. Too much chatter and not enough exercise going on. I blasted my music and tried to tune them all out. I guess I do better when I can see guys... it helps to motivate me :)

When I came home I had a nice Yoga session with Maya. ( I had done yoga with her before on the Playstation. But since I don't have a Playstation I had to come up with another solution.

I didn't like the Yoga on Wii Fit. I mean it's great for learning moves, but it doesn't flow like a yoga session should. I was pleasantly surprised to see Maya appearing in the Wii game, My Fitness Coach!

Here's a screen shot...

That's all I have for now. I'll be back with more later...

New Beginnings

2009-01-04T13:41:00.002-05:00

Today's Run:
Very very slow. However, I'm not complaining too much. My shins are still sore from my 5k, my feet hurt because sometimes my brilliant ideas ... aren't (my running pants are too long, so I had them cover part of me feet - unfortunately, this caused bruises on the bottom of my feet-eek!)

But I've decided to start fresh with my training. I will not worry about where I was before and how I'm not there now. I am going to use my playlists I created last summer but instead of advancing once a week, I'm going to do a playlist for a whole month. I need to stop rushing things.

Stay tuned for details on how I can earn points. :)

Ready to get rolling....

2009-01-04T00:58:00.003-05:00

Well, today... I did a little activity- I did some Wii Fit (broke a sweat), lifted a few weights - no where near the 45 minutes I was supposed to, and played some bowling, tennis, and golf.(on the Wii)
I do plan to go running tomorrow - it's supposed to be in the upper 30s.

Today's quote:
"Find that inner fire inside of you that will keep you focused and motivated. Maybe it's your children, a loved one, or even yourself. Having something that reminds you of why you want to better yourself keeps you going." - Neil Tejwani

Wow. Umm. Yeah, I need to re-evaluate why I'm doing this. Or more correctly REMIND myself WHY I'm doing this. I'm very unhappy with myself - more so than in the last year. I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. I want to feel like I could be wanted. What I mean is, sure maybe people will like me for who I am - but I don't like who I am right now, so I don't want other people to like this version of me either.

Someone (maybe me) needs to remind me that this is HARD WORK. I'll need to sweat, to push myself, to not be lazy, to not get sucked in to a mundane existence. I will also be more diligent and honest in my record keeping. I have been successful in this last area over the past few days. I've made myself record EVERYTHING I've eaten on my Biggest Loser site, no matter how bad it was, or how far over my goal it was. I've found that my success comes best when I am honestly analyzing everything - good and bad. I know I need to exercise more- and as much as I don't want to go back to work Monday, I am looking forward to having a routine- a schedule - and less time for munching.

Ok I need to go to bed - my new year's resolution (I've just decided) is to GET MORE SLEEP. I've read that one of the things that helps weight loss is to get enough sleep and I know I haven't been. So with that...

Goodnight.

Points Competition

2009-01-02T23:30:00.003-05:00

I mentioned earlier that I bought a couple Biggest Loser Calendars. One of my goals is to reflect on the quote of the day each day. Now I'll mention up front that there is a joint Saturday/Sunday page, so I'll only have one post.

Jan 2 - "If it grows out of the ground or you can pick it off a tree, chances are it's good for you." - Bob Harper

Well today I had two bananas, both of which I'm sure were picked from a tree (not by me) I also had some shrimp. I'm sure there is something healthy about things that swim in the sea, right? I'm not 100% on track. It's that time of the month and I get an insane, insatiable hunger. My legs are still sore from 2 days ago, but I'm going to go workout tomorrow.

I'm going to be keeping a point tally. I'll earn points based on proper eating, following my exercise plan and doing extra exercise stuff. I've also been working on setting up a series of "prizes" that I will earn as I reach point totals. I'm hoping that by focusing on staying on track, (and not on actual pounds), I'll be less likely to get frustrated.

In fact I will be adding up my points (so far it's not good) and will post them somewhere on my blog.

Jingle Bell Run 5K

2008-12-31T16:23:00.002-05:00

Hi. Well, where do I begin. I let this school year dominate me .... again. GRRR. But, not anymore. I'm done letting school control my life. I've ballooned back up in weight, I'm back to 220!! I'm fed up, I'm frustrated, and I'm making changes.
This past week I rearranged my living space to accommodate my exercise equipment, as well as a HUGE dry erase board to track my progress. I got two Biggest Loser Calendars to keep me inspired, and added the "Total Gym" to my exercise stuff. (Mine didn't come with the hot guy though :( lol.)I've also purchased a new Wii game -- a workout "game" where Jillian Michael's is my trainer. The first time I played it had a few glitches, but I'll try again. I've also decided to start tracking my food better again. I also joined the Biggest Loser Club Online.

So... I've been at best inconsistent on my exercise. The last run (aside from the race) was mid November, I worked out at the gym right before Thanksgiving. Then I let family issues (my Aunt passed away, my cousin's husband has been in Intensive care since mid Decemeber -- after having bypass surgery) and my being sick for 2 weeks (I did finally go to the doctor) get the best of me. As race day approached, I debated whether or not to run. The friends who were supposed to run with me had to work, the weather was looking frightful, and well, I was OUT OF SHAPE and not at all prepared to run. (I had, at least, bought some winter running gear.) But I decided- I said I was going to run in that race... so golly, I was gonna do it. Even if I came in last- at least I kept my word.

Race Day-
Brrr. It snowed overnight the night before, there was about 2 inches of snow on the ground, the temperature was in the low 20s at race time, with very strong wind gusts. I'm sure the windchill was in the single digits. According to the final race results, over 300 people came out to run. I was amazed by the prizes and refreshments they had - Panera Bread Bagels, Dunkin Donuts, Cookie Trays, Pizza, plus the usual oranges, bananas, protein bars, gatorade, etc.
I let my lack of practice, and lack of knowledge of myself influence how warmly I dressed. I had my outfit chosen but when I got there I decided I was still way too cold and left my coat on too -- BIG MISTAKE. I was way too hot. I ended up taking off my gloves, putting my hoods down, and even unzipping my coat (which was UNDER my sweatshirt). I also realized my cardio level was much lower than I thought. My legs didn't bother me at all - during the race -- they are sore now! But my cardio, and breathing the cold air, slowed me down - as did the snow/ice covered route. I ran when I could, but found myself walking to keep from falling. I showed up. I competed. I finished. That's what counts. Next year will be better.

After the finish:

Reality Check

2008-10-22T19:18:00.006-04:00

I've been so well intentioned. Now it's time to truly act on those intentions. My race - the big one I've been aiming at - is in 70 days. Wow. I've worked out a schedule that will have me READY for the 5k. Today I ran another 3k, part of the "week 1" training. I am quickly realizing it is a lot harder to run when it's cold out. (It's 41, but feels like 37) I'll have to do some research. I've also realized I've been spending too much time at work. But I guess that's not anything new - ask anyone who knows me, however- it NEEDS to change. I've set the alarm on my phone to go off at 4pm to Shoo me out the door. (I still won't get home until 5, since I have an hour commute). I figure I really need to train outside since this 5k is an outdoor race, and I prefer to run in daylight, so as the days get shorter and shorter, I need to get home sooner and sooner.

I saw two deer on my run again today. They rather startled me. I kept hearing leaves rustling behind me and for the first few times I assumed it was the person that had just run past me going the other way, but then they were getting closer and closer - like someone was approaching. But whenever I'd look there would be no one there. Finally I looked INTO the woods and there was a doe and her fawn coming toward me - rather quickly. Then they headed across the path and into the woods on the other side. COOL. =)

What else is new? Not much. My food has been a roller coaster. Sabotage on every corner. But today has been great:
Breakfast- protein shake
Lunch- 2 pieces of papa johns, a 100 calorie rice krispy treat, and a mini bag of pretzels.
After School Snack - A slimfast breakfast bar
Dinner- 6in Chicken Sub on wheat, bag of baked BBQ lays, and a bag of sliced apples (Subway)
Plus I'm currently drinking my gatorade.

I need some support. A buddy. Someone to keep me honest and on task. I'm trying to think of who would be a good support on THIS side of the continent!!

I guess that's it for now. Time for a shower then i'm going to hit the stores looking for Halloween Costume Accessories and GROCERIES. I'm sick of living in a house with NOTHING GOOD to eat. (And I mean GOOD in the GOOD/HEALTHY way).

Today's Run:

New Favorite Picture- I finally got some pictures back from my Birthday party and some other outings. I'll post a link to them as soon as I upload them. But here's one I really like :)

Best $1.99 ever spent

2008-10-14T16:07:00.003-04:00

Hello!! Wow it's been awhile. I'm sorry.
Life has been crazy as ever once school started. I'm getting things back on track now. I'm so out of it I didn't even realize the new Biggest Loser Season had started!!! So - my $1.99 was to download the first episode to my iTunes. I watched it - and in fact finished the episode while running on the treadmill. That was 2 weeks ago.
That week was crazy as I got ready to go to see NKOTB in concert as well as photograph my college roommate's wedding in Niagara Falls. Last week I spent getting ready for a Birthday Golf Outing for... well.. ME. Last Saturday was my 30th birthday. It was great. I'll post some pictures soon of all my latest endeavors really soon.
On the weight loss front things are ok. I mean my weight has fluctuated - but not too badly. As I was getting re-inspired by the Biggest Loser I joined their website. You can check out my profile there:
My Profile on the Biggest Loser Official Site
I'm going to be updating this site much better. I NEED to.
Thanks for checking in on me.
Talk to you all real soon!!!

I DID IT!!!

2008-08-31T10:13:00.003-04:00

1:33:22
Whew! I did it. My plan was to walk for a song then run for a song. I pretty much held to that. I couldn't run up the hill, heading to halfway(home), so I missed a song there and during the second 5k sometimes I couldn't run for the whole song, but I did as much as I could, and I ran to the finish. I'm happy and then I saw my time! Woohoo! Right about where I had hoped it would be. I stopped for a drink 4 times, 3 water and my gatorade, but those stops were less than 20 seconds each (I don't know exact times- probably even less).
What I thought was really cool is that there was another girl running the same thing down in the park. We passed by each other several times and her dad (assumingly, he was running with her) offered me some words of encouragement too. It was such an energy boost to see someone else running the same race.
A few things a little on the negative side:
This shirt is totally not comfortable, perhaps if I had bought the right size I would have liked it better. But I wore it- proudly.
If I never run another 10k, I'd be ok with that. It's a long race (of course I made it even longer by walking a lot) but still I think 5k is definitely my race. Of course if they offer this race again, I'll probably do it, but I don't think I'd do any other 10k.
My race:

As of 11:00 this morning (my time) I'm ranked 8398th. I'll take it :)

Here I go

2008-08-31T07:35:00.004-04:00

Well In about 20 minutes I will be heading out on my 10k run. I'm excited. I'm also excited because I got a new computer yesterday and I think it's just awesome. (It's a Mac). I'll tell you all about it (well maybe not- I realized it's very hard for non-techies to understand my excitement- or that I have a hard time explaining why it's soo cool. ) Let's just say I really like it. In fact before I head out I'll take a picture WITH MY COMPUTER and upload it. Yep, the computer has a BUILT IN camera!

Here it is!

My plan for the 10k, since I get to make my own route, is to essentially run 2 5ks. The route I picked is very close to my normal route- which I figured was a good idea- and I plan to pass a water fountain twice in the first half, halfway being at my house where I can grab a Gatorade, then I'll pass that same water fountain twice in the second half. I'm also heading out while it is still cool - in the 60s. It's going to 85 here today. So with that.. I best be going to get dressed.!! YIPPEE.

I've been running... I swear

2008-08-28T20:10:00.004-04:00

Sorta. I can't believe summer is over! These past two weeks have been crazy. Boring- but crazy, if that's possible. I spent most of last week at school. We had summer school in the morning, then I stayed late to set up computers.
I have been running- every now and then.
This one is from August 17

This one is from August 23

And this one is from tonight:

Today was rainy and humid, but I really wanted to run. That 10k is on Sunday. Am I ready? No! Am I going to do it anyway? Hell, yeah!
On Sunday night - in my sleep- I managed to scratch a mosquito bite and in the process tore off quite a bit of skin on my foot. So I was out of commission most of this week. Today I decided to try running- it was fine. I went for 5k instead of my usual just 30 minutes. I'm trying to plan out how to do my 10k and figured I better go a little further to get ready :)

School has been different. There are kids there, but I haven't really been able to interact with them too much - that makes me sad. I miss my classroom. I've had some issues of when I get home I have nothing to do and I'm bored. So I decided while I was running tonight, that I'll come home and dedicate myself to working out. I have no excuses- it will keep me occupied, plus I've heard it has great side effects lol.

In other news,
the golf guy and I are... well I don't know. Lately just hanging out on the golf course and on the weekends. I don't mind. I'll take what time I can get, he's been exhausted from his new job. We'll see how things go tomorrow - it's our last day of golf. :(

Well I'll talk to you all soon. (sooner than recently) I promise!!!

I FINALLY ADDED MY PICS FROM THE CONCERT. CHECK THEM OUT IN THE POST BELOW :) Isn't Bob cute??

I'm in love. . . . with a Band!

2008-08-17T00:35:00.007-04:00

UPDATE- HERE ARE MY PICTURES, FINALLY

Wow. What a day. I'm totally exhausted and ready to fall asleep, but I really need to write this while it's all fresh.

This morning I had a golf outing, my cousin nearly got a hole in one on a par 4! Quite Awesome. Anyway I was playing golf with Lynne, the woman I mentioned in the previous post. We were discussing "the new guy" and what's been going on. I was asked what he looked like, and felt kinda silly because I couldn't describe him. I could probably draw a picture of him but I can't verbally tell you anything. (I can see him in my head though!) My brain sometimes can't connect from one side to the other I think. lol. Anyway the early afternoon went by without too much.

We sold a lot at the garage sale the last few days and I helped my parents move some furniture. I then headed to Akron (about an hour away) to see a concert. Unfortunately no one knows who this band is and so no one wanted to go with me (a few who probably would were out of town) But I was determined, I REALLY wanted to see this concert. Oh yeah, they are called Great Big Sea. So I got there, got myself a chair, a slushy, and then spotted the merchandise table. YAY. I bought 2 shirts and a signed picture. While I was in line I started talking to another girl in line. She has seen them in concert and was telling me about how awesome it was etc.

The opening act was Jeremy Fisher - who was surprisingly entertaining. I saw that my "new friend" had her chair way up front and there appeared to be room near her, so I asked if I could sit up with her and her friend- she said sure. They were a lot of fun, and it was nice to have some people to enjoy the concert with.

Photos of Jeremy Fisher. (will be inserted on Sunday)

I have a slight confession to make. While I love the music of GBS, I had no idea what they looked like or who they actually were- I didn't know their names or anything! That's one of the reasons I bought the picture. I noticed that in the picture they all had long hair. Cool enough.

So I was kinda surprised when the band came out and only the lead singer had long hair. But I also received the COOLEST surprise ever. The "all purpose musician, Bob" (he plays the whistle, mandolin, guitar, accordian, shakers and I don't even know what else!) looked JUST LIKE the guy I'm interested in. I mean they could be twins!! Talk about a great treat- I pretty much stared at him all night long :) He even had the same mannerisms and smile! WOW. So anyway I will post my pictures from the concert tomorrow- I'm way too tired right now. But here are few pics of GBS from their websites. The one with all three of them resembles my interest best, but the resemblence is still very strong in the other one, too. Of course seeing the mannerisms, a slightly different goatie, and being a little further away - made the look alikeness much stronger at the concert. But still- you get the idea! (These pictures are of Bob from Great Big Sea and The 3 leads of Great Big Sea)

I am most likely going to see GBS again in September and Bridgette (the girl I met at the concert) invited me to hang out with her at that concert, too!

COOL.
Well as I said, I'm exhausted. And so happy!!! =) YAY.

True Contentment

2008-08-15T23:28:00.003-04:00

Happy: characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, or joy.
Content: satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

At this current juncture I feel both of these. It's strange. I'm not sure I've truly felt these before and if I have it was LONG LONG time ago. And yes, a guy has to do with SOME of it. A lot of it though comes from the fact that I'm looking forward to the school year. I like my new principal, I feel like I will be supported (and defended when necessary) - something that was greatly missing in my past boss. I have been much more outgoing lately, people at the golf course seem to be taking notice of me. I have little kids that are my fans. - Today the kids' of the golf course owner learned my name and everytime they saw me they shouted "Megan!" (they are 4 and 2) - cute!

I also have a Grandma replacement. The mother of the golf course owner has been great to me. She is not old enough to be MY Grandma, but she reminds me of my Grandma when I (and she) was younger. She's been so excited for me as I tell her of my newest interest and she cheers whole-heartedly for me. She knows the right things to say and knows when it's best just to listen.

Things are just GREAT. I can't put it in words, really. I find myself with just a huge smile on my face whenever I think about my new golf friends, my "new" job, my new boss, the possibilities of this school year, the fact that my weight is finally starting to drop again, and of course- the new guy ;).

A few more details...
We went out Tuesday with my friends and had a great time. Last night we were supposed to watch a movie, but got too engrossed in the Olympics - but I'm ok with that. Especially since he promised we'd rent it again =) He's out of town for the weekend, but promised to call when he gets back. I learned that he is 37, 7 years older than me and I don't care. We have too much in common and we have fun together. I've also realized I don't care about the smoking. I mean obviously I'd rather he didn't - for health, etc- but overall it doesn't bother me. Right now we are just hanging out, and I'm totally ok with that.

It's all good. =)

Speaks for itself....

2008-08-15T01:35:00.001-04:00

Still Happy

2008-08-11T22:55:00.001-04:00

OK, I don't care about the age thing at all anymore. We have so much in common, it's soo cool :)

Beautiful Saturday

2008-08-09T12:40:00.007-04:00

Today's Run:

It really looks like it should.. you can see my 2 4min runs and the 2 min in the middle :)
Perhaps you would like to see my mishmash of varied musical tastes.. here's today's playlist:

Jump -Van Halen
Learning to Fly - Tom Petty
Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
One Tin Soldier- Me First and the Gimme Gimmes
Maybe Baby- Buddy Holly
Fun, Fun, Fun - Beach Boys
Picture Perfect- Michael W. Smith
You Get What You Give - New Radicals
See You Again- Miley Cyrus

Oh.. you wanted to know why I was so happy? Well.. I'll get to that... lol. OK, well if you remember about a week ago I mentioned that there were a few guys that I was interested in.

Well.. in a nutshell, I think one might be interested back.

Here's the story -
It all started last Tuesday I went to the "In Between Lounge" again - in hopes of seeing the cute kid from the week before. Instead I met a completely drunk guy from Dayton. He was nice, kinda cute, but well.. drunk. I was kinda glad when my friend Andy finally arrived. I was talking to him (Andy) about a few of the guys I was interested in (Andy is not one of them), so we were discussing this guy from my golf league. Andy told me that if I invited him (golf) to the bar next week, Andy would do Karaoke. Hee hee. Andy gave me some pointers on what I could say, etc.

So as golfing arrived on Friday I was a ball of nerves. I got to golf with this guy again and go figure, I was too nervous - I've golfed with him virtually EVERY week with no problem - now today I'm nervous?? Anyway, he was having a bad golfing day too. And of course the whole time I'm golfing I'm trying to figure out how to invite him to the bar. Finally on the 7th hole I got an idea. I bet him drinks that I could beat him on the last two holes. HE AGREED! So this means, even if I play horribly, I'll still get him to the bar =)

We tied the first hole, then I fell apart- kinda. I had two HORRIBLE shots. He beat me by 1. (I won overall though, 47 to 49) So I was pretty happy. Our league has a little cookout after we play and we all sit around and talk. I try to be social with everyone, but this guy and Joe (yes, I'm purposely not using his name) seem to captivate my attention most. They tell the best stories and I love just sitting and listening. Last night was no different - they were sharing stories of their juvenile mischief making. (some happening just a few years ago!)

So as we were leaving, we started discussing plans for Tuesday. So I gave him my phone number. :) Then he asked if I watch movies, and if I was doing anything THIS WEEKEND. (of course I'm not!) So he said he'd call. When he got home last night. We kept talking in the parking lot. About movies, music, cell phones, etc. (soon we were the only ones left) And sure enough he called last night. We talked for over an hour- about all kinds of stuff. We have even more in common than I thought. He's supposed to call me this evening and perhaps we will watch a movie or something tonight.

So there you have it. That's why I have such a huge smile (but I'm going to make it a little smaller now- only because it takes up so much room) my actual smile has not faded by a long shot.

I do have a few small hiccups/concerns that I'm trying to deal with- the biggest of which is he smokes. I don't know if it's just a golf thing, or all the time. Like I said I'm trying to figure out this stuff, like does that out-weigh all the things we have in common, etc. The other much more minor issue, I think, is I think he's at least 5 years older than me. But that's ok right?

MY biggest issue is to just RELAX, enjoy whatever this is, not rush things, not push things, JUST ENJOY.

But I can't stop smiling. It feels good. =)

I'm Happy

2008-08-09T01:12:00.001-04:00

Details to come...

Feeling the burn

2008-08-04T11:42:00.004-04:00

The weather was a bit warmer than I expected..of course being sucked in by Walker Texas Ranger and wasting about 45 minutes, could have affected my weather expectations. When I checked the weather before heading out it said it was 67, which would be great, however after watching Walker, apparently the temperature rose about 11 degrees! I check the weather after coming in and it's 78. I don't usually run when it's about 75, I like the cooler weather. So anyway, it was hot- but a beautiful day. My first running segment is always roughest. I feel so out of sorts, not comfortable. My 2 minutes segment was great, after running these 4 min segments, the 2 minute is a breeze. I think I'm also more in a groove. The last 4 minute is tough, but today I could feel my calves a lot and while I was breathing hard, I think I pushed myself pretty good. I also had a great breakthrough the Saturday that I forgot to mention: You know those quad stretches (like the one in the picture)? Well until very recently, the only way I could do this stretch was to use the opposite arm. In other words, when stretching the right quad, I'd have to use my left hand because I couldn't reach with the right. I'm sure exactly WHY, I mean it could be because my leg wouldn't come up high enough (due to the size of my legs) or it could be that I was too wide and my arm couldn't reach down far enough (around me). But whatever the reason I couldn't do it before... I CAN DO IT NOW! and without holding on to anything too!!

So here is today's run. I've also included the elevation of my runs (in general). This route goes from my house down the entire length of the park walking trail. It's an out and back route. Right now I don't go all the way to the end but the middle of the route is generally flat- it's the hill that I go up and down at the beginning and end I wanted you to see :)
Week 2: Day 2-

I love projects

2008-08-03T01:57:00.008-04:00

I've added like 3 posts in the last 2 days. Make sure you check them all out!

Early Morning Run - technically posted on Saturday, but it's all about Friday 8/1/08
Wake Up Call - Saturday 8/2/08 8:27 pm
Newest Helper - Saturday 8/2/08 10:24 pm

OK so in my last post I mentioned going to a baby shower and that I had some projects to work on. Well... 3 hours later and I'm finally done. I had one minor glitch but overall I can't wait for them to open the presents! I doubt either the mom-to-be or dad-to-be will read this before the shower, so I'll spill all for you to see.

Some background on the Mom and Dad... That's them. Chris and I are cousins. My dad and his mom are actually twins. Anyway, we have an Irish heritage (see our Family Reunion Site) and I'm so incredibly jealous but My Aunt, Uncle, Chris and Missy went to Ireland in May. In fact, the name they chose for their new daughter is inspired by the Irish performer on American Idol, Carly. So I wanted to give them something Irish-like. My original idea was to make her (the baby) a t-shirt that said "My parents went to Ireland and all I got was this T-shirt" Except, the t-shirt wouldn't be from Ireland and the baby went too! So I decided instead to find some other Irish goodies. I found a pair of booties that have shamrocks on them (I don't have a pic of those). I also found a great Irish blessing for new babies and I designed a page and printed it (I got to see the nursery today - so I made it to match) . Here's what the framed image looks like (click to see it bigger) the frame is actually pewter in color.

I also decided to personalize a onesie to match the personality of this family. Actually I personalized 3 of them. I'll tell you about the other two in a minute. Here's the Irish one: It says "Irish Princess"

As I mentioned earlier, I got to see the nursery today and they picked a good one. Lady Bugs by Kidsline. It's great, they won't have to update the room until little Carly is at least 8 or 9. I decided to be cute and I designed the other two onesies to match the room. Below I have included a general picture of the Lady Bug line from Kidsline and then a close up of the images I made and the final onesies.

This is NOT my cousin's room. This was a pic I found on the web. They painted the bottom half of the room about that same green, they have the border cutting across. They do have the dark wood furniture though. It's kinda hard to see the ladybugs, so here are the close-ups of the images I used on the shirts. You can see all the Kidsline accessories at their website.

OK I'm done now. I'm going bed.

Newest Helper

2008-08-02T22:24:00.002-04:00

I've also recently remembered something that always helped me before... chewing sugar free gum. I've been trying to utilize that more often. Here's my new fave:

And while I'm adding pictures, here's a few from my Dad's retirement party. The first one is all the cousins. (Yes, Missy is 8+ months pregnant! - in fact her baby shower is tomorrow - I'll post pics of the cute things I'm making her) The boys are actually my cousins - the girls are wives and fiancees. Anyway the other one is our whole family (minus a few- long family story-I'll explain another day) My parents are the ones in yellow. I don't think they planned it :)

The Cousins

The Whole Family

Wake Up Call

2008-08-02T20:27:00.002-04:00

First of all.. before I start rambling- I started week 2 today.

I need to change a few songs in my playlist, they were a bit slow- even for walking. Week 2 has me warming up for 8 minutes, then run 4 min, walk 2, run 2, walk 2, run 4, cool down(walk) 8. So I did actually run for 1/3 of the time! 10 whole minutes.

So now down to business of the many revelations coming to me in the last 24 hours.

1) Cute ~~Boys~~ Men
This week I have encountered 3 cute guys (well more than that I'm sure, but 3 with whom I became familiar or know) This acted as a reminder to me that I am a ~~girl~~ woman who wants to fall in love, etc. I know- more than anyone- that you can't lose weight for anyone but yourself. But I also know that the type of guy I want to fall for, deserves more than what I can offer right now. I've come to this conclusion over a lot of thought and reasoning. I've long thought the guys I liked were always just "out of my league" however, I haven't been doing a good job (over the years) on my end. I've realized that I only see them as out of my league because I don't think highly enough of myself. (physically- believe me- I know the rest of me is well above average :) hee hee. ) I want to be the kind of ~~girl~~ woman that attracts men, and I want to FEEL that I do.
I don't want to get into specific details about who these guys are - you never know if they read this or not. I will say one I met at a bar, and the two others are from the golf course.

2) Bridal Shower
Ok this kinda matches with the above comments. But it was a family gathering and well, I didn't get any compliments. Which is ok, since I hated the ones I was given last week. People are commenting that I lost more weight, or asking me how much more I've lost, and truthfully- I'm up. Today I was around 211. I'm HOPING some of this is because I've been running more, and such - perhaps I'm building some muscle up and soon it will start shedding again.

3) Clothes Shopping
Ugh. I was at WalMart today and was trying on some pants, getting ready to go back to school. And nothing was fitting correctly. I didn't like the sizes that I would be required to purchase, so I gave up shopping. However, it reminded me of what my end goal is, and what I need to do to get there. While I was at Walmart, I did a little grocery shopping and picked up some good turkey, yogurt, cereal, supplies for english muffin pizzas, brown rice, and some low sugar jelly. I also stopped at Subway for dinner. (no cookies!)

4) Arrival of Purchase
As I was heading out to my run, I received a package. It's my official Human Race Shirt with my own Bib number on it. It's really cool- and looks kinda small (see comments #3). However, I now have it hanging prominently so the next time that I feel like brushing off a run, I will see that I have a deadline - August 31. I want to be decent at a 5k by then (even though the race is a 10k).

5) My birthday is coming up
Ok not really THAT close, it's in October. However, I know where I'd like to be by then. I know who I want to BE by then. And I think I have time to make significant progress to get there.

So what am I doing about all this?
Well I'm back on track, I'm consciously choosing my foods, I making sure I work out more often.
I have some deadlines to work toward - look forward to:

August 22 - report back to school (2 weeks 6 days)
August 25- first day of school (3 weeks 2 days)
August 31 - Human Race 10K (4 weeks)
September 27- Cousin's Wedding (almost 8 weeks)
October 2- NKOTB Concert (9 weeks)
October 11- My 30th Birthday (10 weeks)

If I could lose 2lbs a week, I could be down to about 190 by my birthday.

Then a few further down the road:
Thanksgiving
Christmas
New Years :)

Early Morning Run

2008-08-01T22:05:00.000-04:00

I was feeling enthusiastic - or more likely I convinced myself I would like the way I felt after I ran, so I set my alarm and got up at 6:00. (I had to be at the golf course at 8, so I had just enough time for my 30 minute run). I have to admit that it didn't feel as "great" as the last one, but I did it, I survived and was glad I did!

This morning's run: (the big dip is where I stopped for water at the water fountain)

On my way out of the park on my way home I thought I saw a dog coming toward me across a lawn, before my brain properly registered it, I saw an even bigger one taking a few steps toward me. It was then I realized it was a doe and her fawn (a cute one too, with her white dots) I slowly moved to the other side of the road and the deer quietly went back to their grazing, although the mom kept checking on me as I went by. :)

At the course today I worked an outting, one that Kelly Pavlik sponsored actually that benefits the Akron Children's Hospital. There were over 150 people golfing. It was a nice day. I was a bit tired by the time I got to my evening league, so I rode (not to mention we were playing the back nine which is WAY too hilly - although I'm sure Michelle would laugh at "my hills" compared to hers.
I had a good night. (see tomorrow's posts for more reasons why).

A real RUN.

2008-07-30T21:57:00.003-04:00

Today was a great run. I can say that. It was a RUN. I am still on Week 1. But I felt that on my 3 2minute running increments, I was really running- not jogging (at least not compared to what I've done before)
It was a very surreal run. I didn't head out until about 5 minutes till sundown. (I am smart- my route is very low traffic) As I was running through the park, a light fog rolled in. I had the park mostly to myself, there were a few couples wandering through. But the one part I had the road to myself, the big trees all around me and the fog rolling in. If it weren't for the pavement under my feet I would have thought I was running through Sherwood Forest. Kinda like this (this is a pic I found on the web- not one of mine)
I had a lot of energy tonight and it felt so good. Maybe it's because I went out last night and met a kid (no idea if I'll ever see him again- but that's not the point) I'm socializing, getting out there. I feel re-energized.
So now that I feel incredibly icky (sweaty) I'm gonna go take a shower and cuddle up with a movie. I should be around more often now. :)

Today's run:

Note about distances: I guess progress has been made. Last time I ran this "song list" I only went 2.98k today was 3.03k yeah, yeah it's not a lot, but it's something.

Oh yeah, about my route (not sure if I mentioned this before) It starts off going down a pretty steep hill, which of course means I end coming back UP that hill. I think it's between 1/8 and 1/4 mile hill.

Getting back out there.

2008-07-27T11:37:00.003-04:00

Another week spent at the golf course. I'm finding myself a bit overwhelmed by my new addiction to golf (it truly has become an addiction- I can't get enough) and my classes. Although my last class is done at the end of this week. Which means lots of time spent on the computer this week.
I went running this morning. I'm still working on my "week 1" but I did pretty well. The running part is getting easier. I'd like to think my miles and miles of walking the golf course helps a little too!
Here's today's run:

The program has me walk for 10 minutes, run 2, walk 2, run 2, walk 2, run 2, walk 10. Can you see that in my graphic? ;)

Well we are having a retirement party for my Dad today, so I better get back to helping set up.

102!

2008-07-19T20:27:00.002-04:00

I've been a bit busy this week. I've played 102 holes of golf. I did ride a lot, however it has been in the 90s all week and very humid - great weather for golfing, but man can that sun take it out of ya! I didn't have any earth-shattering rounds, but I played well. Shooting low to mid 40s on all the individual rounds and today my scramble came in 8 under par. (A scramble, for any non-golfers out there, is when everyone hits a ball and you all play the best ball, then pick the best again, etc) It was tough today to beat the team that had a hole in one! (although I did win 2 closest to the pin contests among my team.)

That being said, I'm very far behind on my classes - although I think my internet is FiXED for real this time, now. I need to get back to a schedule. I haven't run at all since Sunday. But I spent Monday on the golf course from 8 am until 9 pm, Wednesday I was there 2:30 pm until 9pm, Thursday 9am until 9 pm, Friday 8 am until 10 pm, and today 8am until 4pm. So I haven't really had a whole lot of time. (I spent Tuesday catching up on some school work- check out my new webpage -in progress)

Anyway, next week I think I may golf a little less, and work on WORKING OUT more.

It's Official!

2008-07-14T21:47:00.003-04:00

I'm crazy. I'm nuts. I didn't do anything I should have. I was unprepared, untrained, and most definitely not ready... but I did it anyway. What you ask? Well my first 5K! How did that happen? Well last night I was looking up the golf even that I'm in tomorrow (a Cancer Society benefit) and I saw that there was a 5K being run this morning, about 20 minutes from where I live. I had figured that I was going to go run for 30 minutes (week 1) anyway, so why not go do it there? OK yeah, I know it was a bit much. Do I regret it? NOT A CHANCE!
I got a number. 474.
I've always wanted one of those. It made me feel like a real runner.
I didn't know anybody there, but quickly befriended 4 girls (women). Two were training for marathons, another is back after having kids, and the fourth - this was her first 5k too. (although she's been running a lot more than me).They warned me about not starting out too quick.Although my plan was to follow my week 1 routine and then just do whatever I could to finish the last mile.
Well my bra helped out with that. Have I mentioned my sports bras issues lately? I had found a good one, but it has these STUPID velcro straps. The left side keeps coming undone. It's very annoying. In fact I was finally so upset, that I ordered an ENELL bra last week - now if it would only get here! But anyway, I was not 50 yards into the race, feeling great, cruising with the others, when BAM, not only did the velcro come undone, but it completely came out of the front of the bra. So I was trying to keep at least a decent walking pace as I tried to feed the bra strap back through the bra. I even took off one of my safety pins to try to get it to hold, but it was too small. But I must say, as annoying as it was, it did keep me from going out to fast. I did make up some ground to keep a few of my new friends in view as I went. I kept at my own pace. I ran during the times I was supposed to, and more when I could. I figure I ran a minimum of 10 minutes, but realistically more like 15. Here is my run according to my iPod.

I did have one problem towards the end of the race. I ran the last loop backwards!! oops. It didn't matter though, I mean it was a LOOP. (and no one was really near me. (and I wasn't in medal contention :) ) ME FINISHING... RUNNING!Here are some more pics of me from the race (my new friends took some of me afterward, and the people in charge of the race took some, too.My official time was 46:09 And I'm ok with that. Now I know what I can do in a real situation, and I can work on it!! (especialy knowing the next one ought to be better without the wardrobe malfunction!!) I actually finished 6th in my age division (out of 8, but still) and I finished 94th out of 108 altogether. Not bad for my first venture :)

The weather was overcast, muggy and 80 degrees. I did get a little wet toward the end of the race (a few sprinkles) I was also proud of myself for pushing and running most of the last loop. Definitely making sure I ran through the finish line.

This last picture was of everyone standing around waiting for the race to begin.

My internet is still on the fritz so even though I'm posting this now, I actually wrote it last night.

Starting Over

2008-07-12T21:18:00.003-04:00

First things first. I've been without internet for the past 2 days.. AHHH. But it appears to be at least pseudo-fixed. YAY.
Thursday I golfed 9 holes, then played a 9-hole scramble. Our scramble won! YAY. We finished 3 under.
Yesterday I spent the morning at the golf course then went out and golfed. I did well. I shot a 42, with several GREAT par saves and a birdie. It was a fun night.
I've been listening to some great podcasts(GolfSmarter.com) - if you are a golfer you should really check them out.

-- so I lost connection mid message-- BLAH! (But I kept writing, in case it came back on)

I'm learning a lot and finding out about a bunch of books I'd love to read.
I also bought a few books about running - Sole Sisters (I've read 3 stories so far- Wendy was right. This is definitely a must read for EVERY runner! I also bought a Women's Running books that has a lot about training and equipment and mentality and racing, just kind of an all in one book. So it is after reading through some of this that I am going to start over in my running training. (especially considering everything I've done has been my own creation- and I don't know anything - lol.) So I'm going to use the beginning guide in the book. Instead of trying to go a full 5k everytime, I'm going to work on building up to running for 30 minutes straight. Now I have to see if my ipod will help me with this. I don't wear a watch, so I may have to change my "running increments" into number of songs rather than minutes. The suggested running plan is as follows:
Each workout should add up to 30 minutes and should be done 3-5 days a week.
Week 1: Walk 10min, Run/walk 10min (running segments 2 min), Walk 10 min
Week 2: Walk 8mins, Run/walk 14min (run 4 min segs.), Walk 8 min
Week 3: Walk 5mins, Run/Walk 20min (run 6 min segs), Walk 5min
Week 4: Walk few mins, Run 7 min, recover, Run 7 min, Walk to end. (build 7 mins to 10 mins by end of week)
Week 5: Walk 3 mins, run 12 mins, Walk 3, Run 12 - build run to 15.
Week 6: Walk 5 run, run 20, walk 5- increasing run to 30 over week.

Well in terms of songs, I will make a playlist that is very close to these times. I think I like being motivated by song changes rather than watching a clock. In fact, right now I'm going to go over (to the other computer) and make the playlists. I'll post them when I've finished making them.
6 weeks from today will be August 23, which will give me one more week before the 10k. My plan will be to run 5k (or at least 30 minutes) and walk the rest.

Well - since I had no internet most of the day, I went out and tried my new playlists. I like it. It was hard (it was well into the 90s today) but I think I'll be more successful trying this training than on my own.

(The dip was where I had to jog in place before crossing the street.)

Depending on my internet.. I'll be checking back in soon :)

Day 1

2008-07-08T15:49:00.003-04:00

This is what a DAY 1 workout involves. (this workout is intended to help female golfers)

Warm Up
Generally this is at least 5 minutes of cardio

07/08/08 - 1 mile run/walk at the track

Arms and Shoulders
Hammer Curl to Overhead
3 sets of 8 reps each arm

07/08/08 -10lbs

Dumbell Shoulder Rotation
3 sets of 8 reps each arm

07/08/08 -5lbs

Twisting Bicep Curl
3 sets of 8 reps each arm

07/08/08 -10lbs

Dumbell Shoulder Rotation with Cable
3 sets of 8 reps

07/08/08 -20lbs

One-Arm Cable Pull
3 sets of 8 reps each arm

07/08/08 -20lbs

One-Arm Cable Push
3 sets of 8 reps each arm

07/08/08 - 20lbs

Cool Down
Interval Training for 10 minutes.

07/08/08 - Recumbent bike, easy 1 min, fast burst 20 secs. repeat for 10 mins.

Workout From Golf For Women .

Unexpected Surprise

2008-07-07T21:50:00.003-04:00

Yes I know that's a bit redundant. But it's worthwhile. First off though, I had a great day at the golf course. I shot a 39, had 2 birdies, a par, won 2 skins, and tied for low gross score. Yeah it was a good day. Food was great - for the most part.
Breakfast- tea and a breakfast bar
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Turkey and non-fat cheese on wheat bun, light yogurt.
Early Dinner: Hot dog at the course (ok- not so good, but I was hungry)
Snack: My Monday night treat- small cookie dough blizzard from DQ
Late Dinner: Large Italian Lettuce Salad (light croutons and low fat cheese) with light balsamic vinaigrette dressing.
oh yeah- and I had a gatorade in there too - I've become a big fan.

Since I got done at the golf course, I've been siting on the couch, munching on my salad, perusing people's blogs. I updated my exercise log to include today's information and THAT'S WHEN IT HIT. What you might ask? Well, a few posts ago I mentioned that I was trying to stay busy because an "anniversary" type date was approaching and my all too good memory would probably cause the day to be bad- again. I am in total shock. I kid you not. Here it is well over 12 hours of awakeness on this day and NOT ONCE did that terrible thought cross my mind. And in fact now that it has- nothing. Not even a flip flop or a hint of queasiness. I'm TOTALLY OKAY. It's a very empowering feeling, to know that this day will not haunt me forever, as I feared. I'm ok. I'll be ok. In fact... I'm MORE than ok- I'm great. I had a totally awesome day. Wow.

I guess now I just have to get back down to business on my running and working out. I've gotten the food back on track. I've decided to "treat" myself to DQ on Mondays (since small blizzards are only $2). I know the key to my fitness success is to get OFF MY BUTT and SWEAT a little (or a lot.)

It is definitely a new day for me!!! Woohoo!!:)

Walking With Dad

2008-07-07T13:11:00.009-04:00

So I was sitting on the couch working on my school stuff (I'm taking classes this summer) when my Dad gave me a message to relay if my cousin called. I asked where he was going and long story short- he was going for a walk! I asked if I could tag along.
We walked at his pace. His back has been bothering him, but I'm ecstatic that he wants to exercise. Every little bit helps. So I grabbed my iPod - no I didn't listen to the music, but I recorded how far/fast we went. The big dip is where we came across a downed cable and talked to the policeman for a little bit, helping him set up the caution tape. We went for a total of 2 blocks around our house.

The picture above is of Dad and I at his retirement reception at work on June 26, 2008. Here's another one of my favorite ones of me and Dad. It's from April 2007.

But this has to be my ALL TIME favorite one! (yes, I know it's blurry- but i Love it!)

So as I was uploading and getting the code to add the visual of our run, I came across a really cool thing that's happening on August 31, 2008. It's the Nike+ Human Race. It's a 10k that's being held in 25 cities worldwide PLUS you can participate at home by using your Nike+ and uploading the data. I know it is WAY too soon for me to actually run a 10k right? But I figure I'd try the training program and since I'm just doing it at home, if I have to walk 5k of it- then fine. It just seems like such a neat thing to be a part of. You can also order a t-shirt that has a unique runner's number on it. OK I'm frustrated, I've been trying to load the Nike store and it's not working. But the shirts look really cool- trust me!
Am I crazy? As of right now I'm planning on just heading down to the park and going the 10k, but I might see if there is an actual race in this area. What do you think?

New Friends Paying Off

2008-07-07T00:11:00.002-04:00

LOL So I already got a helpful tip- actually it's the same tip I got on Friday - so I guess 2 people telling me means I ought to do it.
I found a running club in my area! I really didn't think there were any. For those of you that are part of them what do you think? Is this a good one? It's the Youngstown Road Runners Club.
I worry because I still walk more than I run when I go out.

ok I'm going to bed. THANKS!!!

I have VIRTUAL friends

2008-07-06T22:01:00.003-04:00

First off.. mad props to Michelle for advertising me on her blog and getting me new friends!! It's nice knowing people are reading my blogs. I found that when I was most successful was when I blogged/journaled on a regular basis and I knew that people were reading it. Maybe I'm just selfish or something- but I seem to be MORE inspired when I know I'm helping others to be inspired.

On a little sadder note, I hate the fact that currently 99% of my friends are virtual. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to insult anyone- it's just that most of the people I talk to are hundreds if not thousands miles away. And while I treasure each and every one of them- I desperately need some REAL friends-- that I can go hang out with and play golf with, and meet cute boys with.
Anyone have any ideas how to MAKE friends? I was never good at.

Well I have some more technology work to do before bed.

Umm food and exercise.. I'll tell ya about it tomorrow! (it's not bad)

New Toy

2008-07-05T20:36:00.003-04:00

So the reunion went really well. I have pictures posted if you're interested.
I also went out to watch some fireworks and took about 200 pictures - I'm still sorting through them looking for the good ones. I'll post some when I'm done.
I did ok food wise yesterday - save the absolutely way too delicious chocolate chip cookies my cousin brought. (I had 3 - and 2 oreos)

Today I spent most of the day getting those pictures (above) done. Then I went to Golf Headquarters and got some new tees, some head covers and a new toy.
After setting up my new GPS range finder, I went out to the golf course to try it out. I still like my clubs. :) Although today I couldn't quite hit my driver. I shot a 44 though- on a pretty tough course, Mill Creek North. It was nice being able to see exactly how far I hit each club and how far various hazards are from where I was.

And in a WAY EXCITING side note - my best friend (virtual sister) FINALLY had her 3rd son. She's been on bed rest for over a month! He's a real cutie! So now I'm an "Aunt" 3 times! YAY!!

Lincoln Reese - born 7/4/08

Olypically Inspired

2008-07-04T10:17:00.003-04:00

My Dad and I were watching the Track and Field Olympic Trials last night. A friend of mine, Adriane Blewitt, is competing in it (shot put). But anyway it re-inspired me to get out there and run. That and the fact that I watched "A Lot Like Love" last night and I realized I'm ready to fall in love - I just need to get my body where I want it to be.
So this morning I woke up and went running. It was a beautiful morning- cool, crisp, damp. There were a lot of other people down in the park running, walking, biking, and walking their dogs. I realized that my cardio has lapsed terribly. My legs are shaky, but I think golfing has helped keep them toned. I'm definitely getting back to the gym.
I hope you all have a great 4th of July. I have to get ready for our Family Reunion.
Here's my run:

Confused.

2008-07-03T22:08:00.002-04:00

So, I'm guessing that most of you that read this don't know the history of my life or at least not the last year.

My boyfriend of 3 years and I broke up last summer. (we're coming up on the 1 year anniversary of that day - I'm trying not to think about that, but my brain is kinda screwy that way. I remember dates WAY too well.) Anyway, Luke (my ex) made the right decision. We may have had a great romance in the beginning, but in reality we were much better friends. I know it took me a long time to be honest enough with myself to admit that we weren't really as happy as we pretended to be. He finally had the guts to speak up about it. I know things were complicated by having a third party involved. And before anyone dogs on him because of this- I truly believe to my core- that he would NEVER do anything to intentionally hurt me. I believe he was kinda blindsided by his feelings for this other woman and was truly confused as to what he SHOULD do. He maybe didn't make all the BEST choices, but he tried his best. He went out of his way to keep my esteem up, and he acted as the best friend I could ask for.

In October he moved to Wisconsin. We talked on the phone and tried to keep in touch. It's been pretty touch and go. I do really wish we could be friends. But, well, I'm starting to get the feeling that he doesn't want to. That hurts all over again. Maybe that's what's bothering me today.

About today-
I have a photography company (Luke was in it with me). When he moved to Wisc I let him take one of the company cameras because I thought he would actually still be part of the company. That didn't quite happen. I'm starting to get more bookings and was feeling uneasy about not having my backup camera. I had to ask for it back (along with some money I was still owed from our "parting ways").

I received that package today. And it made me sad. Really sad. And I've spent the day trying to figure out why. I think I was most bothered by the fact that in the box was the camera, lens, and check. No note, nothing personal. That's what makes me think he doesn't want to be friends anymore. We haven't talked since the end of April and our text/emails have been strictly business-like. It makes me sad.

We have one more piece of business still connecting us. I'm torn. Part of me thinks I'm ok, and completely ready to cut all ties. Then there's the other part that wants to still try to be friends.
I know he made the right choice, and lately I've kinda been thinking about how there are things about him that well.. aren't what I'm looking for. I'm very OVER him. I still care about him, don't get me wrong, but I'm definitely NOT still in love with him or anything like that! So why would this stupid package bother me?

I don't know. I've been in a mood all day. I snapped a little at my parents, I'm hoping they both kinda understood since they both knew I got something from Luke today.

In general I'm doing good. I mean my fitness level has been less than desirable, but I've been eating much better. I'm golfing several times a week. I'm actually kind of excited about my new position at school. I'm getting back in touch with my best friend - the girl I've been friends with since 1st grade! I'm getting along with my parents (surprisingly well). I'm learning lots of new computer stuff.

Well thanks for listening to me unload. I needed it. I think I might cry a little tonight. It'll be the first time since January. (in regards to Luke) Am I crazy? Why did I have this reaction? Any thoughts?

New Clubs

2008-07-03T22:06:00.002-04:00

I got my new clubs and absolutely love them. I played 18 holes yesterday and can't wait to play more. I would have written more about them in my true excitement, but I was stupid and didn't eat correctly (in a timely fashion) and came home right on the brink of a migraine.
And today my mood is... surprising and not good (see next post).

All about Running

2008-06-30T00:47:00.004-04:00

The Rules:

Tagging is easy. Just copy the following onto your post. The rules of the game are posted at the start of your blog post. In this case, I'm asking you 5 questions about running. Each player answers the 5 questions on their own blog. At the end of your post you tag 5 other people and post their names. Go to their blogs and leave a comment on their blogs telling them they've been tagged and to look at your blog for details. When they've answered the questions on their own blog, they come back to yours to tell you. Got that? This was copied from Michelle, the only person I know with a blog.

1. How would you describe your running 10 years ago?
10 years ago, I didn't even think about running. I am a short, large busted woman. Even when I was not terribly overweight, the idea of me running was a joke. I tried a few times but it hurt. (part of that I now realize may have been because I didn't wear sports bras - but it's really hard to find them in my size) Seriously, 10 years ago, I "walked" for fitness, but the idea that I could run never even entered my head.

2. What is your best/worst running experience?
As of today I haven't had very many running experiences period. I can remember being in elementary school and chasing the boys around the playground. I remember I was fast, quicker than them. I remember running before gym class in middle school and crashing into a wall. OUCH!
But perhaps my worst running experience happened when I was in 7th grade. We were MADE to participate in Olympic Day. I remember being able to run when I was younger, but didn't realize how out of shape I really was. I was supposed to run the 50 yard dash, the shortest of the possible races. I came in DEAD LAST. I was mortified. I blamed it on the gravel track we were running on, I had no traction whatsoever. It was just very embarrassing - I was teased enough as it was, and now I had just waddled 50yards and came in last. I guess it was at that point that I came to the conclusion, "I just wasn't built for running." This is a picture of me around that time.

3. Why do you run?
In three words - Because I can! Now that I know it is possible for me to run, I love the feeling of running. I feel athletic, it makes me feel normal. I feel like I am BEING the person on the outside that I feel on the inside. I love the rush that comes from sprinting (which I do sparingly - until I'm in better shape) I can't explain the way it feels, running full force, the wind hitting me, as the ground rushes past underneath me.
In a less whimsical answer- I run to lose weight. I still have at least 50 pounds to go and running feels like a good workout and I've read that it's one of the BEST ways to exercise.

4. What is the best or worst piece of running advice that you've been given about running?
I don't know that I've really been given any advice on the matter. I guess to answer the question I would have to refer to my personal trainer who convinced me that I COULD RUN and that it was ok to start out slow and build my way up.

5. Tell us something surprising about yourself that not many people would know.
Something surprising about me? Hmmm.. Something I learned- the hard way, running shoes hurt to walk in, it adds a little motivation to run more on my journeys. I guess really, most people wouldn't know that the person I am on the inside is vastly different from what I portray on the outside- although I am working on that. I see myself so differently from how I think others see me. It's one of the challenges of making this transformation while being surrounded by people who only know the old me- and expect me to BE the old me. I have an image in my head of who I want to be and how I want to be. I'm making changes... some progress.. but still have a long way to go.

I know I'm supposed to tag a bunch of people and tell them to come read this or something - but as I posted at the beginning- I don't know anyone besides Michelle. Hopefully through her I can meet some new people.

Grocery Shopping

2008-06-30T00:09:00.002-04:00

Well today, Mom and I went grocery shopping. I feel good. I finally got a lot of the foods I had been missing. I stocked up on yogurt, and non-fat well... everything.

Downside of the day - I found yet another vice - Weight Watchers Lemon Cakes.

My weight has been going down pretty steadily now that I'm paying more attention to what I'm eating and I'm being even more active.

Speaking of activites. I went running again yesterday and think it's nearing time for me to answer Michelle's questions about running.

My most recent run:

It's weird, this run makes it look like I ran a lot further than I really did. I did jog for the entire 2nd kilometer, however apparently I was going slow as a jog- compared to when I was walking. It was a little hotter than I'm used to- and my stomach was bothering me- but I do feel like I'm getting back in the swing of things.

Perfect Day

2008-06-27T21:53:00.002-04:00

Did you ever have one of those days that just makes you smile? It makes you smile even when no one is around? I had one of those today and from the looks of it, I'll have several more this summer.

Today I started my "job" at the golf course. I'm a starter/ranger. I am now officially an "insider" at the golf course. I spent from 8am until 4pm at THAT golf course. I had a small salad for lunch, I guess and then headed to the other golf course for an actual round of golf. I literally spent my ENTIRE day (8am-9pm) on a golf course- it was great! And with the exception of next Friday, this will be my EVERY FRIDAY for the rest of Summer. :)

It's the first time in a long time that I have felt content, like I was in the right place, doing things I love.

Food-wise I didn't do too badly:
Breakfast was scrambled eggs, dry wheat toast, and hash browns.
Lunch was a salad
Dinner was 2 hot dogs with 1/2 a blizzard for dessert.

I'm happy. =)

I Did it!

2008-06-25T22:31:00.004-04:00

OK so I went to the golf course, walked 9 holes, carrying my clubs. Then I had some extra time to spare, so I got a cart and rode (and played) another 9. I was practicing so my scores.. are well.. lets just say I took a few mulligans. My 18 hole score with no mulligans was 88 though, tied for my best ever. Including my well placed 6 mulligans - I shot a 76. I chipped two shots in - both for birdies.
So after playing 18 holes (downing 2 gatorades in the process) I headed into the clubhouse for my salad. Yummy.
When I got home I had a bit of a sweet tooth, but luckily Mom had also stocked up something not Terrible! -

Dairy Queen Vanilla Orange Bars

Here's the info on these-

Calories: 60

Fat: 0g
Carb:18g
Fiber: 6g
Sugar: 4g
Protein: 2g

So now that I've had my Orange Vanilla Bar, I'm going to go cuddle up in bed with my new book and STAY AWAY from food!

In a few sidenotes -
My best friend is expecting her 3rd son.. any day now.
I got an email from Luke that greatly eases my mind about a few (monetary and business) issues :)
Hopefully I'll get to hang out with Andy sometime soon - he's been a bit of a recluse lately. - I need some FUN (aside from golf)!

Crazy Week

2008-06-25T14:58:00.004-04:00

So, my plans were well intentioned.
Monday I was exhausted from the concert, but I went to school, moved boxes, arranged my room, and had terrible food intake. My lunch was limited to a 'Banquet' Chicken Pot Pie which had virtually nothing in it - except 21 grams of fat!!! That's what I get for not packing a lunch and teaching in a school that is literally miles from civilization. I was so tired that I didn't go golfing and my morning workouts didn't happen. (We got home after 2 am Sunday night - the concert was great though!!)
Tuesday was better. Sorta.
I took my car to the garage and my cousin to the doctor so that killed the morning workout. I'm not really sure what I did most of the day. I had Wendy's for lunch and munched on some pretzels.
My mom has also had 'Nilla Wafers in the house again, which I still cannot keep my hands off of. =(

Today (Wednesday) has been better by far. In fact I'm working on a near perfect day. I had tea and a breakfast bar for breakfast. Then I had a snack consisting of an apple and a protein shake followed by a large lunch of BBQ chicken tenders and brown rice. I'm heading to the golf course tonight and I'll have a salad for dinner there. (I figured the bigger lunch would hold me over better). I've had nothing bad today and I'm planning on keeping it that way.

I need to get back into a routine. I hate this spontaneous scheduling.

Anyway, I'm late. I'll post when I get home tonight and let you know about my game. I've also updated my weight log... the numbers ARE going DOWN :)

Goals and Schedule

2008-06-22T12:36:00.003-04:00

I need to make some new goals and schedule for myself. I'm a numbers, routine person, so it's time I start doing that!
I found some great workouts for golfers that I want to incorporate with my running and actual golfing.
Here are some basic guidelines for my schedule

Sunday
10:30am- WiiFit warm -up
11:00am- Outdoor Run (5k)
9:00pm- WiiFit Yoga

Monday
9:30am WiiFit warm-up
10:00am GYM Arms and Shoulders, Recumbent bike
5:00pm Golf-walking

Tuesday
9:30am- WiiFit warm-up
10:00am- Outdoor Run (5k)
9:00pm- WiiFit Yoga

Wednesday
9:30am WiiFit warm-up
10:00am GYM Legs and Core, Recumbent bike

Thursday
9:30am- WiiFit warm-up
10:00am- Outdoor Run (5k)
5:00pm Golf-walking
9:00pm- WiiFit Yoga

Friday
9:30am WiiFit warm-up
10:00am GYM Chest and Back, Recumbent bike
5:00pm Golf-walking

Saturday
9:30am- WiiFit Yoga
10:00am- WiiFit Warm up
10:30am- Outdoor Run (5k)

The times are approximate. And of course this could all vary depending on what's going on and how the weather cooperates.

Just for my own planning...
Let's say right now (June 22) I'm at 210.
If I lose the recommended 2 lbs per week...
July 27 - 200 lbs
August 31 - 190 lbs
October 5 - 180 lbs
November 9 - 170 lbs
December 14 - 160 lbs
January 18 - 150 lbs - my current long term goal.

Getting back to business

2008-06-22T12:24:00.002-04:00

So today I woke up inspired. Ok maybe it's because I've been watching a bunch of romance movies and I'm ready for that again, but in order for me to be available to prince charming, I have to be the ME I want to be.
I decided to hook up the Wii and check out WiiFit again. The results were less than desirable, but then, that's the point right? I did surprisingly well at the hula hoop - considering I can't do it at all in real life! I find it peculiar that my center of gravity(balance) tends to be "back" too far. I would expect otherwise. Well I'll keep working.
Are there any girls who can do push-ups? I mean I can't even support my weight to start with, let alone push myself anywhere. Maybe that will come with time.
After warming up with the Wii Fit for about 20minutes, I headed out to the real outdoors to go for a run. Wow, my weight may have not changed much in the past 2 months of inactivity, but my endurance and cardio really suffered. I ran where I could but most of my 5k was spent walking at as brisk a pace as I could.

I've done well with food today. For breakfast I had my Multi-grain cheerios with a banana and skim milk, and a mug of tea (skim milk & splenda). After my run, as I'm sitting here recovering, I'm munching on a few pieces of turkey and an apple and drinking a Gatorade.

Tonight I'm going to the Tom Petty concert, so I'm sure the rest of my food choices will not be as good, but I feel good now. :)

What a great day!

2008-06-14T22:51:00.008-04:00

Today I played THE BEST GAME of my life! I shot 1 over par at Bedford Trails. I had a 36. Prior to this my best was a 41 I think. I parred every hole except one of the par 3s. Even my "misses" were golden. My putts were dropping, it was amazing. I'm pretty sure it's because, well 2 reasons:
1- I was using clubs that are much more forgiving and easier to hit than my normal ones.
2- I was RELAXED. I think this is the first time in MONTHS that I truly felt relaxed.

For those of you who don't care about golf, you might want to skip the next few paragraphs :) It's a play-by-play.

MY GAME
Weather was BEAUTIFUL! The sun was shining, it was nearing 80. I played in the evening, teed off around 5:45.
Hole 10 - I did take a mulligan on my first drive. Drive went to left side of fairway, just in the rough. I was about 140 yards out. I used a 6 iron and got to just short of the green, chipped up nicely and putted in.
Hole 11 - Nearly drove the green! Ball was sitting right next to the big Tree roughly 40 yards out. Chipped on, 2 putted. (no complaints- the first putt was long)
*There was a skunk wandering around while I was playing this hole!*
Hole 12 (Par 3) - Teed off with 8 iron, perfect club, ended up exactly pin high, on the right fringe. Chip went a bit far, ended up 2 putting. For the ONLY BOGEY of the day!
Hole 13 - Drive was to the right, but left of cart path. I was left with about a 125 yard approach shot, the 8 iron shot landed about 30 feet from the pin. The par putt did a 270 degree ring around the cup before falling in.
Hole 14 - I hit the drive a bit thin and it ran. It was right, about even with the group of trees, in the fairway though. I used an 8 iron to hit the 120 yard approach. It landed 27 feet from the pin (using my own feet as a rough estimate) My birdie putt LIPPED OUT!! I made par.
Hole 15 (Par 5) - My drive went far, right, but still in the fairway. I tried to hit a 3 wood from about 220 out. I won't anymore. I chunked it and ended up about 120 yards out. But the trusty 8 iron landed me close and I made the par putt.
Hole 16 - My drive went right again, but stayed in the fairway. My approach shot was only about 110 yards. I used the 9 iron and pulled it a little left. I was on the fringe to the left of the green, I chipped up, and made the 2 foot par putt.
Hole 17- The drive was long, but over near the trees, luckily I still had a shot to the green (only about 100 yards). I used the pitching wedge but ended up a bit short, my next chip was better and I sunk my par putt.
Hole 18 (Par 3)- The last hole I used the 8 iron again and landed on the back right of the green. I was close on my birdie putt, but got the par.

A note on my apparel - I wore my black athletic shorts, my new golf shoes (see yesterday's post), and my BRAND NEW "BLEWITT BACKER" T-SHIRT.

I should also note that when I went to the gym this morning/afternoon I got to see some of my friends that I haven't seen in ages.. namely Mark and Mike.

Getting Back Into Things

2008-06-14T15:31:00.004-04:00

So today I was inspired. The weather was cooler and it seemed the perfect day for me to get back to running. I've been hesitating on answering Michelle's questions about running until I have gotten back to doing it regularly- so I can remember why I love it so much.
So I got my shoes on, dug my headphones out, headed to the driveway where my iPod greeted me with an error message "Cannot Find Receiver". This was my signal that it had been WAY TOO Long since I had last run, because I had no idea what it was talking about! I searched for 15 minutes to find it. (I did, thank goodness). So as I was about to venture outside once again I noticed, much to my dismay that it was pouring down rain! Phooey. I thought it let up at one point but then as I was about to go again, it started going heavier again.
So, determined not to lose my motivation, I quickly packed up my gym bag and headed to the gym.
My intended goal was to walk/jog/run for 5k. As I got on the treadmill I kinda realized I was a bit rusty. I stayed on the treadmill for 20 minutes, then rode the recumbent bike for 10 minutes. My feet were numbing in weird places. I guess that's an ok re-start workout. I'll be able to go further again soon, I'm confident.

New Shoes

2008-06-14T00:23:00.002-04:00

Today I looked at new golf clubs, but bought new golf SHOES. I'm a barefoot person. If I could go all summer and never wear socks I'd be happy. Now I have yet one more reason not to wear socks.

I shot a 48 today, I had 8 fives in a row, then an 8. I was trying out my cousin's clubs to see if I liked them - I Do.
They are Cleveland HiBore's

Food today was good except when it was bad.
Breakfast: Multigrain Cheerios, Banana, Milk, Tea
Lunch: BBQ Grilled Chicken Sandwich and 1/2 order of fries, extra piece of bread/butter
Dessert: Cream Soda Dum Dum
Snack: 2 cookies similar to Eat n' Park's Smiley cookies
Dinner: 2 Hot dogs on regular buns
Dessert: Large Cotton Candy Blizzard

A Slow Start

2008-06-12T23:02:00.003-04:00

Today was, well, decent as far as food goes. I had to go to the dentist and get a nail removed from my tire before heading to the golf course. I was conscious of what I ate today. It was great, but none of it was absent minded.

Breakfast: Multigrain Cheerios, Banana, Milk (in cereal), Hot Tea sweetened with Splenda
Lunch: Sloppy Joe on White bun, serving of Lays Cracker Crisps, E.L. Fudge 100 Calorie pack.
Snack: Chips Ahoy 100 Calorie pack.
Snack on the course: Milky Way Bar
Dinner: Salad, Balsamic vinaigrette dressing, Grilled chicken on a wheat wrap
Dessert: Large Cotton Candy Blizzard from DQ.

OK as I type this I realize that I did a lot WORSE than I thought. It seems every time I rationalized a "snack" I had forgotten the ones I had previously.

Tomorrow will be better. :-)

I'm thinking I may make it to the gym or even running this weekend!

Tomorrow I'm going to investigate new golf clubs.

A new...continuation

2008-06-12T02:33:00.002-04:00

I'm continuing my journey to become the ME I've always wanted to be. A major portion of this journey involves weight loss, but there is more to it than that. I have some personal goals and issues I need to work out as well. Please join me on my journey.
As it is 2:30 in the morning, I will add more details tomorrow :)